My sMiLeS, TeArS aNd FeArS <3

2009-12-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

some dirty joke of the day:

How are women and tornadoes alike??

They both moan like hell when they come, and take the house when they leave.

a lesson that i think is interesting.

today i having molecular and cell biology.. wohooo..
there are organelle working in the cell and work in different stuff which will be coordinate later.

the way of life is the similar to the function of cell.
we need a lot of other stuff(helpers) to achieve an efficient work.
everyone of us has different capabilities. we need different people in working different area to accommodate each other.
we will react according to environment, if there is an enemy invading, we use different capabilities to overcome it.
to love...
for a relationship to be success, we need to overcome a lot of problem from the surrounding and personally. we always wanted to protect ourselves and avoid problems. we need communication in order to work well rite?
so communication is important to cell and humans when solving problems.

the cell function has the same analogy to our life, love and individual.

We can only learn to love by loving.loves euu babe. 4 more days to go.

uneven road are waiting for us, baby!

2009-12-01T20:39:00.004+08:00

thanks baby.

I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go.

time flies so fast that i didn't realise that we have been together for 5 mths. we have known each other for 7 years.i believe we can hold hands tightly and go through all the uneven roads. thanks for accepting and loving my family. hope euu can do your best for the sake of our future. i really hope that you will be the last one. you are really different from other guys. i know saying all these might not help in our relationship.tring is what we can do now isn't it ?

i had completed my pp. wondering will there be a pass. my officer is calling miee out so often to remind miee my napfa. omg! tough training for myself again!!!i have a terrible dream today. i felt something hard in my stomach and i am screaming around" i am pregnant!" OMG! i was so anxious! oh. i still have to go training for army, how can i carry a baby to camp. hahas. luckily, this is only a dream! so frightening. good nites everyone!:)

plenty of things to complete.

2009-07-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

i just realise it's gg to august.
and yet,
i have nt done my IPPT.
this stress miee a lot because i hab to take out some tym
to train my fitness.
but i does not have all this tym to do all tis.
i gt exam and my PP.
it stress out my mind a lot.
a few more to add on to the PP
then is done.
i know when to stress when to hab fun wif frens.
i really thanks a lot to my sec senior.
i learn a lot frm them abt life.
they teach miee how to balance my life.
they gives miee joy and laughter.
babe~!
hope euu alwae be there for miee.
encouraging, supporting, advising each other.
we need to communicate well alrite.
i just finish studying biochem for tml UT.
there are so much process and end product that i hab to know.
it makes miee feel giddy.

2009-07-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

will euu sit back in the dark and look back at your life?

why am i so selfish? i alwae talk before i think. i'm feel so drained abt life.

i hab to carry so much burden on my back.
where can i get help? and who can help miee?
i alway envious other people having peaceful and nice families.
i alway hope my mum willbe understanding. i hope my words can change her mindset.

everything in life we hab to balance.
we hab to balance family.(to accomodate each other and understanding)
we hab to balance our finacial.
we hab to balance relationship. if smth goes wrong, ending up with grieveness.

we gt so much to learn in life. i gt to learn more and lead a better life.

i'm such an imperfect person.
so unreasonable and too straightforward.
i hope everyone could accept who i am.
babe, euu will love and dote miee alway rite?
euu will alway be there for miee rite?
trust, confidence, understanding and accomodate and forgive and forget is important.

i am someone who is simple.
i wann everything to be done like the way i wish it to be.
i don wann to be failure in my life.

i saw this quote in another blog, i think it is nice:
“Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you wanted,
it doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.
Everyone loves differently.”

nites~:)loves babe~

2009-07-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

it is impossible to feel bad and at the same time have good thoughts.

i learn how to have good thought and abandoned the bad feeling.

i hab not been updating my blog cos i do not know how to continue it.

i hab go through a lot since i broke up with him.

i know whaat kind of fren i should trust and not to trust.

i trusted my fren too much, in the end tradegy happens.

i realise i made a grave mistake in the way of love.

i learn how to love a person in a correct way.

i learn to treat myself with love and respect and you will attract people who show euu love and respect.

to make a relationship works, focus on what euu appreciate about the other person, and not your complaints.

i did not appreciate what he did and neglect all his effort.

during that period, i really suffered and i lost too much thing at a time.

but thanks anywhere guys, i learn a lot.

got to slp now.nites~

2009-02-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

" Breath in so deep.. Keep me secure and remember me tonight. "

we took this during new year..baby bring miee along to visit his relative and hse..
we spent every moment together and not leaving each other for a seconds..
sometimes, we will stop down to think what we really want...
does we know what is right for us?
what i wan is to love euu wif my whole heart and spend everyday happily wif euu..

HApPy ValEntInE's DAy!

Today is the day where you can be doubly affectionate, doubly loving & doubly mushy with each other. Truth be told, in this big city that we are living in, we do not have everyday to romance.
Today is the day to romance, serenade & get connected on a different level with your love ones.

Had euu enjoyed your valentine?
i enjoy a lot wif dear dear..
he spend a sum of money jus to bring miee to genting wif his fren...
we spend 2day/1nite..
people are:ong lai and his wife
ah fa and his gf
and the odd one my korkor lawerence

the spoilt part is lawerence share the same room wif us..
but we still manage to enjoy the holidae..
thanks dear..i really appreceiate your present and effort that euu put in..

the hello kitty sweet in our mouth brought by our baby..it taste so sweet..yummy*
we both love hello kitty a lots..

this was made by huBby..he spent the whole evening doing this and without surprising miee..

it is the first thing that toouches my heart..

hubby spent almost $40 to catch this for miee at east coast..
wif ah bee,lynn,eric,girl..
we went to eat our reunion dinner during new year..

the moment he came back from work, he saw miee lying on his bed watching tv, he scolded miee..he looked around furtively, as if he was hiding smth from miee..
so i ignored him and he step out of the room..
moment later, he ask miee to look at him and he is carrying the flower in his arm..
the roses catches my eye and unable to take my eye off from it..i was stood rooted to the same spot for a few seconds , feeling lovelorn..thanks dear.. i love the jacket a lot..it is also the first time i recieved flower from my loves one...muackx.

i got this when we played a game at genting..
we mus scor 175 point to get this..
but we could not get..
so dear spent RM 19.90 to buy the boutique of chocolate..
aftermath, thanks dear!

You know you are in love<3
when you see the world in his eyes,
and his eyes everywhere in the world.

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

GIVess miEe aLl uR lOvE

2009-01-19T11:34:00.000+08:00

I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I... I'm so sorry baby
But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
... to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

i love euu dear!

150109
went to malaysia wiff dear..
he go repair car..
he bought a lot of disc..
i watched house bunny at baby's hse liao..
nice show..she's damn sexy..big boots sia.
he bring miee to secret recipe to eat
but lawerence pay as he lose the game..
hahaha..

jenny & wei xiang
dear's and my food

170109
happy two weeks anniversary!
we went to atwell's baby party..
aftermath we went to powerhse..
yen mummy tag along too..
haiish..don knw wad to sae abt yen and him la...
mummy don be so serious and innocent na...
haiish..i don knw wad to do to stop sia..haiish..

240109
i AWAITING for sat..
dear coming my hse to eat reunion dinner..
i think he also must be veri excited and worry..
he gonna see my whole family..
love euu..
250109
oh no..my turn...worry!!
sunday is a dead end for miee..
i gonna go his hse eat steamboat with his veri big family..
all his aunt and uncles...
arghhhh..
WORRYYYY!!!!!

dear i promise i will love and care euu more...
dear don't demand too much from miee..
trust,believe,love,care...
muackx..
don leave miee ok!
this is all i wanted....

2009-01-12T09:47:00.000+08:00

a hApPyMomEntthatiiwanttoshare...

started at 010309 at st james.
i did not expected anythy like this to happen..
He iis a perfect guy man..
caring and sweeet......
he know everything that is on my mind..
080109 he planned smth special..
but, he failed to bring miee there...not his fault, is my fault..feeling damn guilty now..
feel like slapping myself....arghhhhhh....
090109 he bring miee to malaysia to hab our dinner...
jeff lawerence and ger tagged along too....

100109 one week aniiversary...
we went to watch red cliff..wa lao the chinese damn chim but i still able to catch the ball...dear dear could nt catch the ball but to read subtitle..
wahahaha...the show damn nice..i rate it 4/5...next show i want watch bedtime stories...

Everyone wanted this......

mixter of feeling

2008-12-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

A miXteR oF feeLiNg..

times really making us crazy..
life making us confuse..
i missEd Out A lot of thing in my life.

i got a few thing to share with:

firstly, i pass my napfa for my army.
i put in a lot of effort to train myself..
i got a silver..
yeah!

secondly, my contract is coming..
i can get a lot thing for myself and
finally i can support my family..
i need not thing about my future..
a tough road waiting for mieeee..

i got my "him" wif miee..
i need not afraid of anythy.
even thought we are not tgt,
my feeling for him will nt change.
i'm waiting..
i will accept that you hab changed.
you can flirt around as uu like.
i don care..
what i care is uu will be there for miee when
i need euu..
loves..
i miss euu..
one more hour i can see him being wif miee..
yeah!!!

ger. i knw uu are waiting for miee to see uu in one more hour time..
haha!ger all the best to euu and him!
i wish he will realise that uu are the one that he need and love.
i hope he would not resemble ah bee..
i hope he walk the same step as ah bee..
haha!smiles..
i will alwae be there for euu..
muackx..
no BF but got JENNY..

nv a life time i have been feeling so blisSfuL

2008-12-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

babE, laoGOng,
daRLiinG,dearr dearr..
aLl theSe naMe is very familiar to every gf/bf
it is just a
namE..ntH speciaL..
if all this name are GonE
we will called each other
freN,best fren..
even thought it is just a name
it hurt when we stop calling
each other dearr dearr.

Yesterday, i think i am the bravest..
i say out every of my thought to him..
i need a lot courage..
i think this fate..
after so long we still managed to contact
each other..
once we meet or talk on the phone,
we have endless of conversation to talk about
and
argue about it..
we alwae use very rude tone to speak
to each other..
but we don feel offended,

this is the time that we feel sweet..

it is a kind of xingfu.
i now feel so xing fu..
yeah!!!

loves<3

nv a lifeTimE to Bi sO wonderfuL

2008-12-10T09:06:00.000+08:00

I finally hear his voice and
everythy bAck to normal...
he says so much thing about
the past..
which make miee feel so
heartbreakiNg...
why things had become like that!

i hop i could turn the clock back and
don let the chance slip off
and
don let the feeling fade away..
can uu please realise how i feel for euu..
i think uu realise just that uu just do not believe
that's the fact..
i'm so sorriie that i keep giving uu attitude..
just liike what ger sae i'm evil ok!

smiles!wish miee gd luck and xingfu!

2008-12-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

i finally met darliing lerh..
after so long then we could meet up..
i got so much to talk to her and she
is willing to lend miie her ears..
she keep telling miee how sweet is her bf
and keep mentioned her bf..
stupii gurl..
i'm so envious her..

this are some of the pic that i took with linaese..

miee and my sweetiee..

pretty gurl and miee

i finally saw my dad..
i damn miss him sia..
the moment he get down from the car.
i realise he is getting older..
he told miee his eye sight getting blurer..
he gonna go for operation..
i veri worry for him..
my mum sae he not worth for miee to worry for him as
he does not bring miee up at all..
he leave miee at a veri young age..
but i don blame him at all as he is the one that bring miee to this world..
he still deserve the respect and i should..

i got to know a new song few weeks ago..
i recieve it from my fren..
when i listen to it all the thoughts just flash in my mind..
i suddenly thought of "him"..
when the dae he is gone,
i damn miss him..
but i did not say a single thing to him at all..
i don wann him to know!

hahax..
anywae this few daes i feel so fufiling..

for my fellow buddy~!

2008-08-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

afiq : i really treasure the relationship between uu and miie..i can't believe that in a short time our bond is so strong.when i'm sad uu will be there and to listen every single rubbish that i say.thanks a lot afiq.i wish after this term uu won forget me this Girl fren!i hope iwill be there for uu every single time uu needs me..

shu xian: a quiet girl and does not tell me alot of her emotion worries.. we just happen to be together and click on..she alway will say bu yao guan ta los..she alway there smiling and LOL!i rmb the first tym i saw her she look guai guai and i thou she's those action ger sia..but after i got to knw her smoke(surprising) and realise is her face make her look so serious...love uu xian!

syukri: he is the guy that i admire a lot..he might look like mat but he is a nice guy..he alway give me a face and ask me not to worry..when he's there i feel safe..he is the first guy that i knw in class and when my first presentation i was shivering with fear but he said"don worry!anythy i help uu cover!"wow...feelsecure rite?

wai kin: uncle~!auntie~! this words will be gone after this term...oh my god..nobody will suan and arfue with me laio le...haiish!he is a nice guy when he talk nicely and softly..hope uu and HL got ending worx..

alan: i will miss the way uu call me ah lian and auntie..i will miss the stupii face that every morning uu will give at the control station..i will miss the way uu say uu not full at all...everythy uu eat wasn't enough for uu...good luck to our love life worx..haha~!rmb me~!!!!!!

pey wen: wen wen!~pork princesssss~! EEEEE...DISGUSTING...wo shi zui mei de los...pey wen i admire the courage that uu dare to say all those "TRUE" thy abt urself...it is good that uu got confidence.. when we got no food we just need to shout"pork princess!"the food will arrive in front of us...haha! wen i got one thy to tell uu "you are the prettiest ger" who has a good heart!muackieesss...

Your 1st post.. =)

2008-07-24T12:24:00.000+08:00

Hi jenny...
this is your first blog...
hope u like it...=)
hahahahahahahahaha.....
this is your 1st post....
Afiq is the best!!!!